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I was walking and these guys drove past in their cat and whistled and honked at me and made crude remarks.
I wanted to cry.
I hate this as well. I feel so judged and shaken up for some reason. It makes me feel gross.
Thoughts
I think the hierarchy in eating disorders needs to be addressed.
Anorexia is not ‘better’ than bulimia
Bulimia is not ‘better’ than EDNOS
EDNOS is not ‘better’ than BED
People need to stop saying. “OH MY GOSH, ANA IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN MIA. EWW MIA. GROSS”
Like seriously.
You might as well be saying:
“Oh breast cancer is so much better than lung cancer..eww lung cancer!!”
They are diseases. Not achievements.
(END RANT)
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B.P. 5 times :(
I feel so out of control today I can’t stop myself I didn’t plan any of todays binges they just happened.
1st B.P-2 overeasy eggs, spoonful of refried beans with queso fresco, 1 tortilla, 1 liter of juice
2nd B.P-1 cheeseburger 545 calories, 1 24oz. Slurpee
3rd B.P.-1 liter of juice
4th B.P.- 2 cans of chicken noodle soup 360 calories, 1 cup of fanta soda, 1 cup arizona lemon iced tea, goldfish crackers
5th B.P-1 bowl of fruit loops, chips and jalapeno cheese, 1 bag of buttered popcorn, 2 cups of arizona lemon iced tea
"I either want to be completely recovered or completely emaciated. It’s the in between that I can’t stand, the limbo of failure where you know that you haven’t done your best at one or the other: dying or living."
— Marya Hornbacher (via esurient)
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Fuck
My mom saw my 10 month old scars on my right elbow she just grabbed my arm hard out of no where during a casual conversation that I can’t even remember what it was about cause she fucking freaked me out I could still feel her fingers on my arm she was like what are those lines? I was like I don’t know they’ve been there forever I don’t remember how I got them… She laughs when nervous or anxious and she was like giggling saying What do you mean you don’t know how or what those scars are what did you do to yourself what were you doing? I was on my way out so I got in the car and said I just don’t remember all right I’ll be back in a little bit.. Fuck this better not be brought up again I don’t even know what to say to her not even if I told her the truth I still wouldn’t know what to say or how to explain ughh hoping she forgets or something
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